pull me out

i love the smell of the ground after the rain, filled with hope. it is as if nature has everything pre-planned for us. we all have to go through mud and rain before the sunshine falls upon us. i want that day to come fast. i am getting sick of the life i am living in now. i am not complaining about the urbanized life because to be honest, i am in love with it. fast paced lifestyle, constantly on the move are what i desire. i just hate the ugly side of life.

i want a child's innocence. everything will be simple, pretty and wonderful. i dont have to fear my tutors for yelling at me for not completing my work. i dont have to worry about falling behind expectations. i dont have to involve myself in complicated relationships. all these can be avoided as i will be growing under the protection of my parents. taking a step at a time, waiting to grow up to discover an unpredictable and uncertain world ahead.

i need someone to pull me out of reality. i have learnt hard and well enough on the lesson called reality. i have taught myself to accept the ugly truth of life. i understand i cannot have everything i desired. i know impossible is possible. i just want to spend a day away from home, away from the life i am having now. anywhere, anything will do. i just want to run. i may seem to be escaping but from what? please allow me to be an escapist once.

i dont want to see people stopping in their tracks, taking a seat by the roadside with their heads bowed low. i want to sit by them and tell them to look up at the bright sky. sunshine after the rain, it always happen. stay hopeful and not be despair. i hate to see saddness in people's eyes. it pains me and makes me feel helpless. is there anything that i can help? it is such a simple sentence but it is often not heard.

just keep on fighting i shall. one day, i will succeed. =) just remember, anger management.